Ugh! Ive got that feeling of knowing I should be doing other things, (like be in bed for me right now) But you choose to do something unproductive instead.
Im sitting in Trevans room trying to get him to sleep and stay awake myself, and I'm thinking about just plain life in general.

Ian and I just celebrated our 4year anniversary and I cant stop thinking about how fast its flown by! Granted, 4 years isnt a huge amount of time, but It seems like yesterday that I was planning a wedding and a life changing move to a place I could have never guessed Id be. If you'd have asked me 5 years ago if I was the kind of person who could just pick up and leave Utah to live in Arkansas as a stay at home mom of 2 kids and a military wife, I would have died laughing! Id barely ever visited anywhere outside Utah back then. But now I look at everything over the last 4years and I can barely remember not being who I am now.
Not all of that is positive, its hard to sometimes look at my house and think "Wow Im super great!" More often than I should be admitting, I can see that My kids fight constantly, they color on the walls with markers (some of them permanent, and dont even get me started on the acrylic black paint I once found in trevans closet) I sometimes only see the unmade beds and the seemingly endless mountain of laundry, and the sticky spot on the kitchen floor where someone spilled juice and I just looked at it and hoped the cats would lick it up. (ps, they dont).... and I just want to run! Hightail it for someplace less chaotic.

BUT there are also parts of me that I can look at now and say "Wow I didnt know you had it in you.." because I honestly didnt.
These are the parts of me that Im trying to really think about and nurture and hope can get us through a really trying time that is sneaking up on our family right now.
We have maybe a good 9 weeks before we leave AR and the kids and I move back home to Utah for a year. It's exciting to think about being back home where all our family and some close friends are, but its also going to be a really hard year for us without Ian. Our little family has been through 2- four to five month deployments, it wasnt easy, but I think we did ok. thinking about a whole year though, makes me wonder if I, little ol' me...with the laundry piles and the markered walls and the spilled juice... could do it without half my heart for an entire year.
Now Ian is NOT the cleanliest person on the planet, sometimes I think Im going crazy when he can walk through the same house with the dishes in the sink and laundry on the floor and the aforementioned "kiddy wall art" that drives me insane, and not even bat an eye. It can be really frustrating. But when Im really stressed out, or angry, or sad, there is no one in the world who can bring me back and give calm and caring and love the way he does for me.

Can I live so long without that?
I really hope I can! It seems to be all I can think about lately.

Update on Us!

Everything here has been so crazy! I wonder where the summer went? We have so much to catch up on with everyone this might be the longest post ever.
First of all, (in case youve been hiding under a rock) We got our follow on orders to Spangdahem Germany!
Its the strangest feeling of stress and nervousness but alot of excitment too. Last year one of my best friends got surprise orders over there and not even a year later we got them too. We're both really excited and I think it will make the transition SO SO So much easier on us.
Ian and I will be in UT in mid Feb. Then he leaves for Osan Korea for year. Not looking forward to being apart for so long. But its not a deployment so we'll get to talk as often as we want and possibly do a mid-tour visit.
Then we are due to Germany by March 2011.



We'll be kinda between Pforzheim and Freiburg.
Just a few hours from Paris. :)




ok, now for my summer catchup since today is the first day of fall (can we say SLACKER?)

We took a trip to UT in July for my Grans funeral. It was a good trip but for a really hard reason. I gave the Eulogy for my Gran, it was a mix of feelings because I was so nervous, But also so honored that I was asked. I loved my Gran so much and even though we didnt see each other often Ive always felt (and continue to feel) such a strong connection to her. She means the world to me and I think about her and miss her so much everyday.



After visiting in Cedar we went up north to Ogden to visit family and friends before heading home. We hit up Lagoon with the kids, kyleton, and my sister Holly and her two kids Caden and Hannah. I dont remember the last time I had been there before that and it was SO much fun.

Kyleton Brodi and Trevan waiting in line.


Trevan and Brodi driving the boat.


Kyle and Brodi


Our boys Carter and Trevan.


Our nephew Caden.


Our funny niece Hannah.


Trevan waiting in line.


Kyle and Brodi


My sister-in-law Holly.


More waiting...


for the Carousel!


Carter riding the carousel


Brodi riding a dragon.


Trevan dodging the water


Brodi getting right in there.


The day before we went home to Arkansas, we planned a ice cream stop at Jakes Over the Top with our friends in UT. It was yummy and super fun.

Carters HUGE sunday that he couldnt even get close to finishing. but look at that smile!


Leslie and Trevan


Trevan and Mommy


Then for the looooong ride home.

Brodi did alot of this..


And Trevan was alot grumpier than this so I must have got him in a good moment.


This is a picture of a rainstorm that we thought would NEVER end. it rained so much it flooded our entire front yard. So we put on swimming suits and played in it!


Trevan smothering our cat Ruby. They do this regularly but the cats handle it pretty well. They're very tolerant!


Ian reenlisted this month for another 5 years. this is the ceremony that took place in the shop at work. Trevan and I went for support and to bring all the boys celebration donuts :)




And last but not least we had the Air Force Ball. It was for the AirForces birthday and they held it at the Peabody in downtown Little Rock. Our friend Jennie was sweet enough to watch the kids for us so we could spend the night there and have a really fun night.

This was the view from our room of the Arkansas River.


Ian and I attempting to take a picture of us in the hotel mirror before we went down to the ball.


These are our friends from the shop, Alex and Jennifer.


All the boys. Alex, Taylor, Jo and Ian.


Ian and Taylor.


Ian looking classy with our giant umbrella (it rained alot this night)


Getting down on the dance floor.


Getting ready to leave the next morning and go back to reality. :)


The "PeaBody Ducks" we gave Brodi and Trevan.


Thats it!
Happy Fall Everyone!

New warmer and scent for August!!

 

 

Also everything in the catalogs are on sale this month at a 10% discount to make room for the Fall/Winter 2009 products so stock up on your faves because starting in Sept. they wont be there anymore!
Contact me or check the website if you want to order!
www.Scentsy.com/TaushaMarietti

On the 4th of July my Gran and PaPa celebrated their 50th Wedding Anniversary.
They loved each other so much!

The next morning my Gran suffered a seizure and was admitted to the hospital, I got the call at noon that she probably wouldnt make it, But Ive watched her survive so many things, Breast Cancer, bad falls and countless surgerys, that I secretly hoped she would make it though this time. It was just too much for her and she passed away at 8pm last night.
Im heart broken, along with all of my family and pretty much anyone who knew this fiesty, beautiful woman. I loved her SO much and I'm going to miss her more than anything! I am grateful that I got to see her one more time in March of this year. She got to meet my husband and my two sons for the first and I guess the last time.
Im so thankful that I have that.
I love you Gran!




We are packing now and leaving in the morning for Cedar City.

Finally back!

Well I know we havent been with you all on this blog for a while, so I am going to have to let everyone know what has been going on with us these last 4 months now.
On Feb. 25, 2009 (the day of Brodi's 5th birthday and our last post) my father Bruce Allen Marietti died of a heart attack. He was 53 years old. Nothing in my life has been harder for me to accept. He was an amazing Dad and Grandpa. Its so hard to believe that when ever I have a question he will never be there to answer it anymore. We love and miss him so much everyday.




In April Our oldest, Carter, turned the big 8 and was baptized. He is getting so big! its weird to think that he is already 8. He is so smart and funny and we are so proud of him! We miss him alot and love him even more.




I also started Airman Leadership School, or ALS in April. I needed to attend to be able to sew on my Staff Sargent stripe. It was 6 weeks long and very exhausting, mentally and physically. Every day I had to read lots and take tests and give speeches. We also did LOTS of running, just to graduate we had to do a 10 mile run, its the most I have ever run at once. I know Tausha was happy for me to be done.





On the 8th of June our littlest boy Trevan turned 3! He is getting so big too fast.
He is our last baby and that only seems to make it worse. He loves Diego and playing with his sister Brodi, even though they fight, alot! He's still a great cuddler and likes to make people laugh at all the silly stuff he does. We love him sooo much!!




On June 13th Brodi had her first dance recital, we enrolled her in Febuary for ballet and jazz/tap dancing and she really loved doing it!
She did REALLY well at her very first recital and we are so proud of her and look forward to continuing her lessons in the fall.



A huge change for our family is happening right now, just last week we found out that I have orders to Osan, Korea, along with 3 of my friends. Its kind of crummy because I have to go alone for a year without Tausha or the kids, but it is allowing us to go where ever in the world we want to after the year apart. Right now we put in to go (in order): Spangdahlem Germany, Ramstien Germany, Mildenhall England, Lakenheath England, Hickam Hawaii, Aviano Italy. for state side I have: Mt Home Idaho, and Hill Utah. We will let you know what we get when I get my follow-on though.



We've spent 4 great years in Little Rock AR and although it was hard to get used to at first, (can you say HUMIDITY?!) its really grown on us and we are going to miss the people and experiences we've had here.



Ok so that SHOULD get us caught up on most of the big things that we havent been posting for a while, I promise to keep up now so that we dont get that far behind again! Thanks for reading! Love you all!!